Memories, logic, perception and reality

My mom told me that when she was young, she argued that the trees made the wind. "How's that?", I asked. "Well, you never feel the wind unless the trees are blowing." "Hmm. Makes sense I guess." I was very young.

I became "aware" at a young age. I think it was a young age...I was 3. And I don't mean just memories I have. I was aware of my place in the family as the youngest, how I felt when I did something displeasing to another, how to make others laugh by saying something witty or doing something silly. I even became aware that our family was struggling as a unit. This all contributed to me being, what I determine now, oversensitive.

Those memories that have stuck with me have formed my perceptions and my reality today. I don't suppose I'm any different than anyone else. However, the difference I do see, is that my acute awareness, and subsequent discomfort of that awareness, led me down some specific paths.

For the longest time, I was worn out with being so sensitive. It was exhausting. I made a semi-conscious decision to step back...from everything. So instead of taking an active role in my life and making choices that were good for me, I let the realities of others guide me along a lazy path - and at one point in my recent past, a self-destructive path.

But, because of those experiences, and my recent re-entry into the world of the "awakened", after moving through the realities I created for myself and not liking them, I have a new perspective.

In my quest for a deeper understanding of my life, I have read, listened to and attended seminars given by people, current-day philosophers, like Deepak Chopra and Wayne Dyer. A lecture given by Deepak Chopra back in 1991 on The Basics of Quantum Healing, is transcribed on this page: http://www.ascension-research.org/reality.html . That was a similar lecture to one he gave and for which I attended in 2005 here in Houston. It got the juices flowing faster. And reading a variation of that lecture I heard in person, the above listed article, has given me more information to ponder.

As I walk further down my own path, in a renewed and heightened wakefulness, and not fearful of that awakening, or even exhausted anymore, I find myself choosing a much different path than those I have walked before.

My reality is different from what it was last year, last week, yesterday. My perception has changed and will continue to do so. My logic is finer tuned. And I will make new memories steeped in the experiences of my new perception, logic and reality.

The logic behind the trees making the wind is sound, based on a perception. But it is not accurate.